New Year, Same Me

So many of us over the years do the same things, the new year approaches and we hype ourselves up, make promises, and dream of the us we could be – the us we think we want to be or should be.

This is not me.

As we welcomed in 2019 I did what I’ve done in so many days past. I slept in a little (no work, awesome), gave my daughter some medicine, took my other daughter to Disney World, went for a training run, ate hummus for dinner, and watched a movie with my partner.

That’s it. No false promises of a better tomorrow. No telling myself that today is the day. Why? That is my every day. There is no sense in waiting for the new year to start something, to change something, or to leave something behind. Sure, symbolism isn’t a bad thing on its own but the idea that we must wait to start holds many of us back.

I will work on goals this week, as I did last week, and will again next week. Setting and reviewing my goals is something I do every week, every month, and yes, every year. As I reviewed 2018 I did see that it was a year of pulling back. There were not a great deal of goals achieved, nor dreams realized. Better than anyone, I know that this is my own doing. Allowing the self doubt to rule me, being lazy, and just all around over committing saw to my lack of achievements.

However, plenty got done in 2018 as well. My bills got paid, my children were fed, and many laughs were had. It was a good year in many ways.

One thing I do love about the start of a new year is the opportunity to organize your year. It is the perfect time to attempt to do something silly or ambitious with your yearly goals because it looks nice on a calendar that way, which satisfies my desire to have perfection (which is never achievable) but I’ll attempt it.

So what am I going to do in 2019? I am going to challenge myself in many of the SAME ways I always have, and some different ones. I’ll continue to grow as a person, continue to set my goals, etc.. but I will also charge myself with trying new things. With committing to the mundane parts of daily life and working through the “boring” stuff that helps build us to where we want to be. There are not shortcuts and we must do the work to reap the rewards.

Trust the process.

Discipline.

This is my year, this is my focus. I am going to lean into my daily life, enjoy the process, give myself grace when it doesn’t all get done, but mostly I’m just going to do it. I’m going to get the training run in. Do the laundry. Pack my lunches. Read. Practice something.

I’m just going to do it.

Each month I will focus on a different discipline of daily life. Each month I will try one new thing. Each month of 2019 I am going to speak to God.

These are things I do “almost” daily. I would like to be able to look at my planner at the end of the year and see it filled in, noted all over, and loved – to see it used and life lived.

New year. Same me.

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